Yesterday, though I wasn't feeling great, I put on a smile and went out with my husband and kids to celebrate our 16th wedding anniversary. If it was any other day, I would likely have listened to my body and declined. However, I didn't want to disappoint them or myself. They had just returned a day earlier from a weeklong vacation, from which I stayed home. We all had been looking forward to going to see the movie together. So without complaints or excuses, I attended the movie and thoroughly enjoyed it. Afterwards, I accompanied them to a local restaurant and watched them eat a delicious dinner as I sipped on a little strawberry lemonade. I have to admit it was a nice evening.
However, this morning has been a more difficult challenge. My body is completely exhausted. Getting up this morning was frustrating to say the least. In fact, my physical state is so weak, fatigued, and sore that I returned to bed for another couple of hours after beginning my tube feed. Finally, forcing myself to get up and migrate to the couch, I have continued to struggle. I catch my mind wanting to be upset, wanting to feel hurt, wanting to place blame BUT I WILL NOT allow myself to break today. I KNOW that yesterday's experience with my family was worthwhile. I have no regrets and though I hate it, I HAVE to accept the consequences. It may not be fair, it's definitely not easy (especially since it was only 3 hours of sitting outside of the house), but for now it's the price I have to pay with my illness. Click here to actually see the reality.
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