Sometimes there's just not much you can say. Times get tough, body and mind become exhausted, circumstances that you may or may not be able to control start to overwhelm your spirit. So what can you do? JUST BREATHE! At least that is my current goal! I'm fighting to regain my positivity. I'm holding on tightly to my faith and belief that there is something more. It's hard! Living with chronic illness is chaotic. Life becomes crazy. Quite honestly, it wears me down. Horrible symptoms sometimes send me in a whirlwind, plummeting me into dark shadows. I become saddened as I watch friends and peers that are literally starving to death because the medical field can't figure out how to help us. I become frustrated when we can't gain the support we need for more research and awareness. (Something as simple as signing a petition for Congress to support Bill HR 2311, which would provide more funding for digestive motility disorders.) I am heartbroken when I learn of deaths that could have been prevented if families, friends, and medical teams could have just shown empathy, believed their struggles, and cared enough to try and help. I become angry when I learn of more deaths in our health community as a result of being unable to receive proper healthcare, nutrition, or intervention due to the lack of knowledge or desire to understand our health needs. The emotions can become a tangled mess that drags me down, tears at my heart, and even holds me prisoner. Leaving me with the only things, most likely the most important things I can do. JUST BREATHE and TRUST that GOD has control and a plan that will make all of my struggles meaningful and worthwhile! I feel certain that God has his reasons. I have learned so much more about myself and the world as a result of my health journey. My relationships with God and family have become much deeper. I have witnessed times of strength behind my feeding tube and ileostomy. But I have also discovered some of my weaknesses. I know that here are still lessons on Earth here for me to learn. There is love for me to share and experience. I can't give up now! Instead I have to press forward and JUST BREATHE while I attempt to JUST BE whatever God intends for me to be. "Breathe" by Jonny Diaz
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Trisha BundyA proud mother, educator, Gastroparesis & GI Motility Disorder Advocate, Like my content? Want to thank me with a small token of appreciation? https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/1LH7R639ORBML?ref_=wl_share
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