Where's my inner warrior?
Where's my strong, courageous, fighter? Where's my crusader? My hope is fading, my symptoms are taking over. I am fading, I am slowly slipping away. Just don't know how much longer I can survive. I am here, I am present, I keep persevering for my kids I keep trying for my family. Unquestioning God's plan & purpose. Believing change will come And that I'm here for a reason. But that's it. I'm JUST here. Where's the fun, curious, adventurous me? Where's the me that loves life? Where IS my life? How can I recapture the "real" me? How can I return to living? I try to stay strong. I try to stay positive. I'ts just so hard Becoming impossible. Gastroparesis is robbing my life As well as some of my friends'. Day in Day out we give everything! We use all of our energy. For what? Just to exist and fight again tomorrow and the next day and the next? When will we be heard? When will we be helped? This invisible disease has hidden us! Trapping our true inner self! Leaving us struggling internally While NO ONE seems to be searching! No one willing to help! When will we be able to escape these walls? When will WE reappear and LIVE again? We just want to feel better! Is that too much to ask? © 2015 Trisha Bundy ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
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No it is not too much to ask! And you are more than just here! You are a beautiful present day in and day out! Even in our darkest of valleys, we have a light to shine. You just once again proved this Trisha! As heartbreaking as your words make me, they also show me your light! Praying for us all to be more than here... But heard!
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Leslie Elfrink Myers
6/20/2015 08:08:26 am
this is beautifuly written. I'm not sure when my life disapeared, but it did. At some point I stopped living because of GP. I want to live!
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Trisha
6/23/2015 02:09:03 am
Thank you Deb and Leslie!
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