We are told that we should not fear death,
but have you ever been scared because fear is so far away? Sometimes I sit wondering what is wrong with me, as thoughts of dying, disappearing, vanishing are just common thoughts during my day. I have no desire to end my life early. I'm not going to take my life in my own hands. It's just I sometimes feel so numb, almost non-existent. And just wishing anything would help take away all of my pains. It becomes so tedious and difficult pretending to be okay Trying to stay strong for my kids, and not appearing weak. Confusion and peace often wresting within me, especially when times seem to be so very bleak. Memories of my last ER visit, floating around and around in my mind. My mom and I both thought I'd reached the end of my time. Moaning and squirming with intense pain, Praying for my kids and loved ones I thought were being left behind. I just NEEDED THEM to be COMFORTED, I WANTED them to KNOW that I was at PEACE. I PRAYED they each knew how much I LOVED them And that my LOVE for them would NEVER EVER CEASE.
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