Vacation is suppose to be an exciting, relaxing time to spend with family. I have always looked forward to and enjoyed vacationing. Being ill has drastically decreased the frequency, duration, and activities that I am able to partake in during vacations. Many vacations occur without me now. When I do become brave enough to attempt a vacation, it is only a night (maybe 2) and confined to the hotel. It has been over a year since I went on my last vacation - which did not go very well at all. I was sick and in pain the entire time, though my kids thankfully were able to keep themselves entertained by enjoying the pools and waterslides.
Promising to go somewhere with them before school began again, I agreed to accompany them on a beach trip this past weekend. We planned to have 2 nights at the hotel, arriving Friday night and leaving first thing Sunday morning, allowing them all day Saturday to have fun swimming and sliding. I am thankful to have had an opportunity to be a part of their memories, though my time was all spent in the cabana or in our room. Sickness was experienced again on this trip - though the change of scenery and vacation was mentally refreshing.
Unfortunately, due to my health this past year, I actually was fearful of this vacation. I wasn't necessarily worried about being nauseated or in pain, as that would occur at home anyway. I was scared of increasing my level of exhaustion, which has been absolutely awful lately. I was also concerned about my hydration as well. Thankfully, I was able to receive fluids Friday before leaving and Monday upon my return so hydration was maintained. The ride to the beach, sitting outside, and being in a different environment (while refreshing & enjoyable) required more energy than I had anticipated. Upon my return, I have been a zombie. Too tired to do anything, barely keeping my head off the couch, and extra sleeping to try and recover. My husband and family have voiced concerns over how weak, pale, and lethargic I appear. My husband has even admitted that he is scared to take me anywhere because of the consequences faced afterwards.
Was the trip worthwhile - ABSOLUTELY!!! It's just taking much more out of me than expected. However, I loved the change of scenery, I enjoyed watching my kids run back and forth to the pool, slides, and ocean. I was able to relax and spend some quality time with them. The view was beautiful. Taking pictures with my kids was exciting. The sunset was breathtaking. Treasured memories were made during the trip that I will cherish always. Recovery has been much more difficult than imagined, but I have faith that I will eventually start to regain some energy.