What do you think of when you consider the word "risk"? Does your mind automatically think of taking risks in positive or negative terms, or do you think of it as neutral?
What about in regards to taking risks when living with chronic illness? Does the meaning of risk taking take on a different connotation or change in some way?
In my mind, I visualize risks taking as being dependent on the circumstances at hand. I am aware that everything that I think, say, and do can be considered risky since everything can have good and bad outcomes.
Some risks are minimal with all results being decent. However, some risks can have extreme consequences, requiring me to take time to carefully weigh both sides of my options. I understand that life is unpredictable and is full of uncertainties, but I still attempt to reduce the threats and dangers, at least the ones I perceive manageable in the moment.
Currently, my risks tend to include:
- deciding which medications I'm willing to administer to myself along with their possible side effects,
- if I'll undergo certain medical testing or procedures in hopes of better understanding or relief even if they may not lead to any improvements,
- whether or not to attempt drinking/eating something while realizing I'll likely feel bad physically afterwards,
- and figuring out how transparent to actually be with my written or vocal words and actions.
- In addition, risks are also involved if I let my pride interfere by halting me from making certain choices or pushing me to levels of overexertion.
When I take the time to recall risks that I have taken in the past, am currently taking, or see myself possibly taking in the near future - I recognize that some results are quite undesirable yet may also be worthwhile in the long run. Sometimes the results may be a complete mystery. Regardless, being human, I think that it's only natural to hesitate when trying to manage my risk responsibly.